Forcing myself to blog today, not feeling particularly articulate and not much goes on in my empty head these days. I keep wanting to sleep and wake up feeling better, but I don’t. At least sleep feels good. I actually thought I was physically sick yesterday but it only lasted a couple hours. I even convinced myself I had a fever and when the thermometer didn’t agree it was junk. Is psychically sick a thing? If it is, I am. Does anybody read this when I’m just bitching? Maybe my husband. If so…..He needs to take it easy on me. I’m slacking in my parenting, I know. But peanut butter toast with sugar is okay once in awhile for breakfast. I do believe my children get the short end of the stick when I am depressed. All anyone can do is their best when it comes to parenting. But what do you do when you are not at your best? I have a sitter that comes three days a week to give me time to recoup my energy. I usually just clean when she is here but now I sit and doodle my computer. When she shows up. HMMMMMM……. What else can I bitch about? I used up all my printer ink printing these cool ass pictures of heroes battling dragons and now I just wish I could get them in the frames. I’ll share them with you, I find them inspirational. I used to feel like that glowing girl not being consumed but now I feel a little more like a sparrow. I don’t feel like I can overcome much of anything. I dread when I have to go participate in life. That’s the thing about life, it kind of sucks you in. God forbid you get to the point you can’t. I guess I shouldn’t complain. I’m not that bad off, just mopey. Not entertaining I but I’m free so you can’t complain either. Haha, I made a joke. I bet I’d feel better if I had a sword. I need o focus my will and picture a sword of light everytime I get tearful.