I could have sworn I had an extra bottle of every med before I went on this trip. Apparently I was wrong, they didn’t fill my Depakote and now I am dealing with a civilian pharmacy to try to get a script transferred from a military facility. I don’t know how this is going to go but I have my fingers crossed. They already called me once for a new phone number and the script has only been in their hands for fifteen minutes. I don’t know why I am panicking over this, my last Dr. told me my dose probably doesn’t even have me at a therapeutic level, so I can probably go without it for a while. My pills are my crutch though, I take them religiously every day because the make everything all better, or so I tell myself. Even if it’s just a placebo effect it works for me. If I am having anxiety, I take my buspar and deep breath until the panic goes away, I get sleepy twenty minutes after taking my nighttime meds even though I no longer take a sleeping pill. Depakote is my mood stabilizer, it keeps the swings from going too high or too low. I NEED it, it’s my second favorite pill ever. Lithium was my favorite for mood but the side effect of destroying my thyroid ended our relationship.