I’m finally below 240 lbs! It’s been so long and I just know I’ll be seeing 220 soon. I don’t feel deprived or restricted at all. In fact I’ve had ice cream on a regular basis, just dairy free ice cream. Whole foods, plant based is the way to go. As I watch more and more documentaries on the whole food movement, I’m exposed to the vegan side of things, the animal rights issues an the environmental impact. I’m leaning more and more towards not only never eating meat again, but also fazing it out of my families lives as well. I can’t bring myself to buy it at the grocery and cooking meat has become harder and harder. My husband is not of the same leanings and feels like I am making a major life decision, another, while he is deployed. He is coming home to a new hairdo and a new lifestyle. I can’t go back, I can’t contribute to the torture and slaughter of animals, and I don’t want my children to carry that kind of burden either. I know it’s not right of me to decide for him, it’s a decision he will have to come to on his own, or not. But this is a decision I have made for myself, and I’m sticking with it. Life is all about growth as a human being and bettering ourselves. I feel like this makes me a better person. I can change and grow and that’s ok, even in a marriage. Ideally we will grow in the same direction. I don’t plan on going overboard or putting a label on myself, but I feel like veganism may be a positive step towards the future for myself.
The real battle is being fought in the kitchen, trying to get a 13 year old who has been a meat eater all her life, and picky at that, to try new vegetables is difficult to say the least. Some days better than others, but most days it’s a battle. I feel so much better, and the weight is finally falling off, without hours in the gym everyday, I just want her to experience these benefits as well. Especially since she gained 40 lbs this summer. She is up to 198 lbs and I refuse to watch that scale go any higher for her. I have to help her make better choices. Its my responsibility as a parent. I’m ok if she chooses to continue to eat meat, but she better learn how to cook it because I don’t know how much longer I can. It’s like my eyes have been opened for the first time and I don’t want to close them again. I want everyone to open their eyes. But you can’t force this kind of enlightenment, it’s like quitting smoking, you have to be ready. It’s a deeply personal decision that takes an incredible amount of strength. It’s not a decision I can make for her.